Dear Diary - Part 7

Dear Diary,

I know I haven't been updating in a while, it's been what .. A bit over a week now? I'm sorry but I have been so busy lately. I took 2 weeks off of college because my doctor said I needed a full recovery and to get better before I go back. Did I mention that I have been spending a lot of time with 3bdulla lately? Since he was the one who saved me and he was my brother 7mdan's best fried in high school, my family trusts him a lot and so whenever he would come over I'd hang out with him and my brothers. My mother doesn't mind, in fact, she is quite supportive of me hanging out with him. I noticed that whenever me and 3bdulla would talk or something, my mom would smile. I wonder what she's thinking.

Shamma has been coming over everyday after university and she sometimes sleeps over on the weekends. I skyped with Maryam yesterday and she said that Paris is amazing as usual and that she met a local guy there but at the moment they are just friends. Oh yeah and by the way Shamma and I have been hanging out with M7md my cousin a lot too. I am almost positive that they like each other, because whenever I look at 7mood I would catch him staring at Shamma and she'd blush and look away. Hmm I hear wedding bells ringing ;) Wait no that's the sound of my phone =))  Lemme check who's calling..


*INCOMING CALL: UNKNOWN NUMBER*

Me: Alo?
Stranger: Salam 3laikum
It sounded like a guy. His voice was slightly familiar bs I don't know who it was.
Me: 3laikum El Salam ..  Mno Ma3ay?
Stranger: Ana wa7ed .. Inti mno?
Me: La walla e7lif bs? -.- Inta ellay miti9il 3alay
Stranger: Inzain mumkin nit3araf?
Me: Agool en4ilif a7sanlik .. W i4a titi9il b3ad marah babali'3 3laik el shr6ah !
Stranger: 7beebty leish m3a9ba?
Me: CHUB! Ana mb 7beebtik fahimny?
Stranger: Ellay iyray7ich 7yaty
Me: E7tirim Nafsik a7sanlik!
I hear a roar of laughter.. A bunch of guys were laughing. I started getting angry and annoyed.
Me: MUMKIN A3ARF SHO EY'6A7IK
Stranger: KAAAAAAAAKK =)) Shamoos balach m3a9ba!? =))
Me: MNO HA?!
He started laughing: 7beebich y3ny mno.
Me: CHUBB!!
Stranger: Ana 3bdulla =))
Me: YA 7YWAN. YA 8LEEL EL ADAB. SHAKO TITI9IL FYAH W ITGOOLY HAL KALAM?!
Abdulla: Walla atma95ar .. Kan fkrat Saifo..
Me: Hum wyak?!
Abdulla: Heih w You're on speaker
Me: YA 7YWANAT ! WALLA 7SABKUM MA3AY YOUM ITRIDOON EL BAIT :@
Saif: Hadyy Hady! A9lan inti 9'3eirah matigdireen itsaween shay =))
I could hear the guys dying from laughter.
Me: Ma3asalamah!

*PHONE CALL ENDED*


Walla hayail el 7meer bychoofoon sho basawii youm biyirji3oun el bait. Bajlib el dinyah 3laihum. What the hell was that? It was the stupidest phone call ever! Wait .. Did 3bdulla say 7beebty w 7yaty?! OH MY GOD He Did!! Ahhh fdaaiitttaaa <3 Ayyy Ayyy ana sho yalsa a5arbi6?! Ho mithil u5ooy. I will not fall inlove with him. A9lan I don't like him. Who am I kidding .. I like him. A lot. But I am certain that he only sees me as a sister.. Besides what would a guy like him want with a girl like me? He is tall, hot, has a great personality and did I mention hot? Ufff if only he knew what he does to me..  After spending half an hour day dreaming over 3bdulla. Yes I am that pathetic that I  find myself randomly daydreaming about him.. Anything and everything I do reminds of him. I went downstairs to the meelas to find all of the guys watching some football match. I can feel the temperature rising in my cheeks as I saw 3bdulla staring at me.. Smiling.  Sh*t!! I am in my pyjama!! I'm only wearing short shorts and a slightly see-through tank top!

I rapidly ran upstairs and changed into a sweatshirt and sweatpants by Pink then joined the guys downstairs. The guys were screaming and yelling threatening remarks at the Tv as if the players can hear them! I started laughing at how hillarious they looked and sounded. They kept saying stuff like "WALLA IN MAYIBT GOAL BA4BAA7KK!!" and "YI5RIB BAIT HAL 7ARIS! KART A9FAR YA '3ABI KART A9FAR!!" After the match was over the guys said they wanted to go get food from McDonald's and buy snacks from Jam3iya since 3bdulla was sleeping over and they ran out of snacks and so I told the guys I will join them. I was wearing casual clothes and we were just gonna go get food so I didn't have to change my clothes. We all went in Fahood's Range Rover because it can fit all of us. Yes we went in one car. Saif carried me over his shoulder and threw me in the car on 3bdulla and 7mdan's lap! I was laying down on their lap! I started yelling at Saif and he just kept on laughing thinking it was funny. As usual, one of my brothers had to tease me about my weight and this time it was 7mdan. He said and I quote "5aibah Shamoos bitkasreen reely! Yalla goomy wayed thjeelah mb gadir at7amal waznich!" "7tta el feil a5af 3nich! Ksarty '6ahry yal pumba" Saif added. I started getting really upset and emotional since it was that time of month again and so I cried and got out of the car. I don't know why bs nowadays 3a kilshay I get emotional!  5leefh and Fahad got pissed at 7mdan and Saif because they always like to comment on my weight. I can hear 5leefh yelling at them saying "Into matisti7oon 3la wayihkum! Fashalto el bnayah jdam el rayal w wayed bala'3to el kalam hal marah! Into chifto shamoos nafs el reeshah leish it7asisoonha chanha dababah? A9lan l3ilmkum a7la youm el bent 3ndha curves! Allah 5alig kil7ad as beautiful people, you know how girls get sensitive when you talk about their weight! 7ram 3laikum!" Fdaaiiitt 5loof he always defends me <3 I heard someone getting out of the car but I didn't bother looking back. I was just about to open the underground garage door when I felt someone hold my arm and say ..............................................................

Dear Diary - Part 6

Dear Diary,

It felt like forever since I was awake. I tried to open my eyes or to speak a couple of times but I failed miserably. Let me try one more time eh?  ............ UFFFF I CAN'T !!!   "Bismillah El Ra7man El Ra7eem" I said to myself. I did it! I opened my eyes for a few seconds but my eyelids felt heavy and they closed again. Once again I heard someone yelling "She woke up!" I hear many footsteps speeding towards me. Where am I and why is someone saying that I woke up? I am so confused. I finally got the strength after a while and opened my eyes and this time I didn't close it. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing would come out!! My mom was stroking my hair and kept repeating "Al7mdilla! Al7mdilla! Shkran Ya Raby Shkran :')" My brother 5leefa came to me and said "Shamsa! 7beebty! Tbain Ayshay? Shay Ey3awirch? Tbain Mai (water)?" I wanted to say yes but I couldn't. A Lebanese doctor came and said  "Ya jama3a! El 9abiya lissa hala2 2amat .. Hya ra7 itnam shwey wa ana ra7 anadeekum lama bt2dar ta7kee aw lama fee progress ma3ha okay?"  My mom told everyone to get out of the room and that she'll stay with me. My mom sat on the bed I was on and kept thanking Allah for saving me. After a while I tried to talk and I actually managed to say a few words. I tried calling my mom "Ma .. Mama" My voice was barely audible. My mom held my hand and said "Na3am mamati .. Na3am 7beebty .. Gooly sho tbein .. Sho feech? Shay ey3awirch? Tbeen tishribein shay? Gooly sho tbeen w beykoun jdamich!"  "Mama .. W-What  ha-happened?" I stuttered. "inti irta7ay w 3ugub bngoolich sho istiwa" She replied. The nurse came in and gave me some pain killers for my head and body ache.

I took a nap and when I woke up I saw my entire family there including 3bdulla and Shammah! There were flowers and presents everywhere. I saw my aunts and a few others crying. I slowly started remembering what happened. I was jet-skiing then I fell right? My cousin M7md (who asked my to do the race) came next to me and his eyes were filled with tears.. He looked so depressed and hurt, kisar 5a6ry </3
"Shamoos .. Shamoos I'm so sorry! Walla I'm sorry please forgive! It's all my fault that you're here.. If - if I didn't dare you then you wouldn't be in pain and in the hospital. Shamsa argooch sam7eeny :'(" His tears started falling down his face. M7md was crying. M7md was crying! I never saw a guy cry before. What do I do? What do I say?! I instinctively wiped away his tears with my hand and replied by saying "It's okay 7moodii walla it's okay! A9lan you were telling me to not speed and go far! Ellay 79al 79al. It's not your fault! Please don't cry or else I'll cry ): " I felt my tears threatening to spill. He looked so heartbroken.. I have never seen him like this. M7md excused himself and went to the toilet.

"What exactly happened? Why am I here?"  I asked no one in particular. 7mdan looked at 5loof who looked at 3bdulla. Mama told 3bdulla to explain what happened \: Bs why 3bdulla was the question in my head.
3bdulla came to me and said "Tit4akarein sho istiwa 3gub ma 6i7ty min el jet-skii?" Hmm well kinda. "La.. not really" 3bdulla looked like he was thinking of what to say next. "Emm.. Inzain f inti 67ty min el jetski bs ma7ad la7a'6 .. W I was driving my jet ski not too far from you w I saw you w sped to you.. I saw you drowning w chocking so I got off my jet-ski and carried you onto mine. I yelled to the guys to come help as i was bringing you to shore. I asked anyone from your family if they knew mouth-to-mouth resuscitation and everyone said they didn't know how.. I was the only one who knew because I'm studying to be a doctor.. Elmuhum.. I tried to do it and you opened your eyes a bit bs then you blacked out again. I kept trying to save you bs I couldn't do much and it would've taken long for the ambulance to come fa 5abart u5ooch 7mdan eysha'3il el sayarah w wadainach el mstashfa. Tamait a7awil a6ali3 kil el mai ellay da5ilch bs it was coming out slowly and you were chocking and coughing a lot. 7mdan was driving as fast as possible to reach the hospital and by the time we reached the emergency section you were turning a light shade of blue because the oxygen wasn't reaching your lungs. After a while you were breathing 3dil bs when the doctor did an x-ray on your head they saw swelling because you hit your head on a rock and did an immediate surgery.. During the surgery you lost a lot of blood and they had to stop the surgery. The doctor said ina fee i7timal inich you lose a bit of your memory bs el7mdilla you didn't. Unfortunately, you were in a coma for the past 3 days. Al7mdilla ena Allah Salamch.. It could have been way worse."  I was shocked. "I .. I was in a coma?!" It felt like I was in a movie.. Nothing sounded  realistic or possible.

My mom was still crying.. Thanking Allah for saving her one and only daughter.. My brain was still processing the information I have been told.. After about 5 minutes 5leefa informed me that he, my mom and 3bdulla have been here from the past 3 days.. They kept telling 3bdulla to leave and rest but he said he'll stay untill I wake up to make sure I am okay. I felt my temperature rising when I thought about 3bdulla giving me mouth-to-mouth resuscitation :$ Shamma came to me with tears streaming down her cheeks .. She was telling me off saying things like "Ya 7mara kumin mara geltlich matroo7een b3eid w matisri3ein!" I giggled at how mad and worried she looked and everyone stared at me as if I'm crazy for giggling. M7md was at the door looking at me with obvious shock on his face, Shamma looked at the direction I was staring at and I could have sworn that she blushed when she saw M7md.

Anyways my dear diary.. I am going to talk to my family for a while and maybe take a nap.. Talk to you soon.


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I think this might have been the longest post so far :P   Please tell me what you think about the story so far :D

Dear Diary - Part 5B

Dear Diary, 

I didn't think that the wave was a big deal so I continued driving when suddenly I flipped over. I wasn't wearing a life vest so I was choking on water. I felt like I was sinking into the water. Going deeper and deeper. I couldn't breath anymore, I tried swimming up to the surface but I had no energy and the current was too strong for me. I felt something hard hit my head then suddenly everything went Black.

I tried to open my eyes, even if it was for just a bit but I failed. I felt something soft on my lips breathing in me. Slowly, I felt the water escape my mouth, it was warm and bubbly. I couldn't do anything. My body felt paralyzed. I tried to scream but nothing came out. I tried my best to slightly open my eyes and this time I succeeded. I saw the clear, blue sky and the fluffy clouds. Suddenly I felt someones hands pumping my chest so hard that it hurt. Once again it was breathing in me and the water started escaping the corner of my lips. I involuntarily closed my eyes and everything went black again. Am I dying? I asked myself.

After what seemed like forever I opened my eyes again. My head was pounded and my body felt heavy and bruised. I looked around me and saw white. Where am I? Am I in heaven? I thought to myself. I heard someone yelling "She woke up! She woke up!" I could hear footsteps rushing towards me. I couldn't open my eyes. I heard a loud, continuous beep. I was terrified. I wanted to scream and cry but nothing would come out! For the third time everything went black.

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Sorry for the short post but I promise that chapter six would be longer.

Dear Diary - Part 5

Dear Diary,

I woke up today to the sound of my BlackBerry buzzing. It was a bbm from Shamooh saying sorry she couldn't hang out yesterday. I told her that it was fine and I had fun spending the day with my brothers. Maryam told me that she arrived to the City of Love. I told her to not forget to get me something (as a joke) :P  I checked the time and it was 10:30am. Perfect! I have enough time to get ready, eat breakfast and go to my grandfather's house.

I did my morning routine and changed into this:

I did my hair into a messy bun and added nude lipstick and winged eyeliner. I went downstairs to have breakfast.. Omelet and Orange Juice. Yum! Fahood came and joined me after a few minutes and we talked a bit about random things. I asked when we will go to Yadee M7md's house w he said we'll go after half an hour lnna my uncles want to go to 9alat el Jm3a wya b3a'6.

After breakfast I went with Fahood to bait Yadee w salamna 3l Ahal .. I sat with my cousin Hind and we were talking about some Tv show she's watching. By the time the rest of my brothers and mom came it was Almost wagt el 9alah so my brothers rushed to the Mseed. I sat with my aunts a bit w we were talking shwy. 

5alo Fa6ma (Hind's Mom) : Mashallah 3laich Shamasii m7lawaa ;)

Me: Hehehe :$ 6al3a 3a 5alty ;)

5alo Fa6ma:  :$ Fdaaittiichh 7beebtyy :*

5alo 7amda (7mood/M7md's Mom) : Haa Shamoos mta nawya titzawijain? 

Me: :O 5alo b3dny 9'3eirah w makamalt drasty!!

5alo 7amda: Sho 9'3eirah? Inti f sin el zwaj! Sho rayich f 7mood wildy?

Me: 5alo! M7md bnisbat u5ooy!!

5alo 7amda: Yallah 3laich w 3la 3nadich! Mithil Umich!!

When I was a child we used to play wedding w house and 7mood would always act like my husband.. So evidently my Aunts and Mom would say that when we grow up, we are going to get married. Yes I used to have a crush on 7mood when I was like 8 but not anymore.. I highly doubt he see's me as anything other than a sister. Besides, 7mood is 26 and I'm 20. I know that 6 years is 3ady bs i don't know i would rather a smaller age difference even though age is just a number.

After 30mins the men came back from the Mseed and sat down with us. In my family it's okay for the men to sit with the women because we're all family. Usually the man would sit next to his wife and it is soo cute! But today my uncles sat on one side and my aunts on the other. My cousins and brothers also sat on one side. They were talking about eveeryyythhhinnggg! From football to politics to fashion to business to weddings. I got bored and so I went out to the beach to walk. My grandfather lives in The Palm Jumeirah aka Na5la. He bought 4 big house and connected them together so he would have privacy. He took the last few houses because they have a bigger shore and no one lives next to him. I was walking toward the area that has houses and I see a few guys playing beach volleyball and a few in the water in their jet ski's. I assumed that they were English because we have a lot of English neighbors. I put my earphones in my ear, Fancy by Iggy is playing and I start dancing along with the music whilst singing. As I'm walking I think I hit a hard wall. I almost fell over when I felt a pair of hands steadying me. "Careful there you almost fell!" Said the guy. I looked up and I didn't believe my eyes. "3bdullah!!??" I said. "Shamsa?!?!" He replied. "What are you doing here?!" We both said "Me? What about you!?" I asked. "I'm here in my cousins Shalaih what about you?" He replied. "I'm here in  my grandfathers house :|" A guy came smiling devilishly  and said "3bood it3arifha? 3arifna ya5y 3rifna"  3bdulla looked mad. "Inta sho itgool! 3aib 3laik Bu 7maid!" "Hady Hady ya5y! She's all yours ;) "  I just stood stood there shocked and confused. 

3bdulla apologized for what happened and told me it was nice seeing me again. Once we said our goodbyes I ran back to the house! That was so embarassing! But damn.. 3bdulla has a 6pac :O Aghh can he be any more perfect? I went in the house w my cousins asked me if I want to join them outside to tan and but I said No cuz I'm already tanned :P My brothers said that they wanted to drive the jet ski's and buggies so I said I will join them. Since I always come to bait yadee I have clothes. I  changed into this with shorts.

I got into my jet ski and sped far into the sea. My cousin told me to stop because I was going too far and that he wanted to race me and of course I couldn't say no to a challenge :P I was going so fast that my jet ski kept bouncing of the water but the adrenaline rush I had made me want to do more tricks and go faster! I could hear my cousins screaming in the background but I couldn't make out what they were saying and I continued speeding a lot that I didn't notice how far I was into the sea! The houses looked like tiny dots! I continued driving my jet ski when a huge wave was heading my way.. I didn't really think it was a big deal and so I continued driving when suddenly...........................................................................................

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Cliff Hanger ;) Gonna post the next part of part 5 soon :P

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Dear Diary - Part 4

Dear Diary,

When I looked back it was.................






















3bdulla :S

Me: WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! YOU SCARED THE SH*T OUT OF ME!!
3bdulla: Sorry .. We were all looking for you! Sho itsaween filail bara3 3l ba7ar broo7ich?!
Me: I lost track of time..
3bdulla: Leish ma5abarty 7ad inich7 biti6l3ein bara3?!
Me: Who do you think you are talking to me like that?! Inta mb u5ooy wla ubooy!
3bdulla: Asif bs we were all worried sick about you!
Me: Why would you worry? You don't even know me!
3bdulla: Because I do.
Me: That's not a valid reason :|
3bdulla: Well I don't care. Yalla t3aly wyay bwa9ilch 3nd baitkum
Me: Well what if I don't want to?
3bdulla: Is that a challenge? :D
Me: Maybe it is. Maybe it isn't.
3bdulla: Okay then..
Abdulla picked me up and threw me across his shoulder
Me: AAAAAYYYYY YAA 7YWAANN NAZILNYY!!!
3bdulla: Ana 7ywan? Ma3aleih Shamoos .. Ma3alaih
Thank god it was dark or else he would've seen me blush:$ Did he just call me Shamoos? Ughh Snap Out Of it Shamsa!  Abdulla threatened to throw me on the sand!
Me: Laa Laa 5alaa9 Asfa Asfaa !! I take it back!
3bdulla: 3baly B3ad *smirks*
After what seemed like an eternity, we reached home and 3bdulla let me down and told me to walk inside.
I got in the house and everybody was yelling at me :S
Me: Balakum into kilkum it9ar5oon?! *my eyes started tearing up*
Mom: SHAMSAA :'( Don't ever scare me like that again!
Me: I'm sorry Mama! I went to walk by the beach and I lost track of time..
Now I started crying..
Mom: Shamsa!! Leish it9ei7een?!
Me: I don't know..!
Mom: Ma3alaih bnayaty .. Yalla Al7mdilla 3bdulla 7a9alch w you're safe.

After a while 3bdulla left and my brothers said they wanted to talk to me.

7mdan: Shamsa t3aly hni nba nramisch
I was slightly afraid but I went to them.
Me: N3am 7mood?
7mdan: Shmais why were you out alone at night?
Me: I wanted a bit of fresh air..?
7mdan: A bit of fresh air for 4 hours? *raises his eyebrow*
Me: Umm yeah?
7mdan: Shamsa you know we will always be here for you.. What's wrong? You haven't been acting like yourself since the past few days..
Me: Nothing is wrong..
7mdan seemed unsure of my answer bs mashaha
Me: Yalla ya jama3a ana broo7 bargid al7eenah
"Ti9be7ein 3la 5air" The all replied simultaneously.

I took a quick, warm bath , changed into my Mini Mouse pajama's and went to bed reflecting on what has happened today.





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Sorry for the short post, the next one will be longer :D
I have 2 questions.. What do you think of the story so far AND Do I continue adding images or no?

Dear Diary - Part 3B

Dear Diary,

Where was I? Oh ya .. When I looked up it was ....


















7MOOODD!!!!! M7md is my cousin who lived in London because he studies there. I didn't see him in years! M7md and I used to be best friends when we were kids. We used to do everything together, we were inseparable. Whenever we played games we would always be partners, he was my partner in crime =)) I remember this one time, we sneaked into the kitchen late at night and stole a box of chocolates and cookies :') Then when we grew up into our teens he we went our separate ways.. Only seeing each other sometimes during the Friday family yam3ah. Soon after that he went to study in a college in London and I didn't see him since!

Me: 7MOOOODDIIIII!!!!!!
M7md: SHAAMOOOSSSTTTIIIII!!!!!!!
Me: 7moood when did youu come backk?!
M7md: Hmm 2 days ago
Me: W laishh mat5abernii!!?? I miss youuu!!
M7md: Sorry I've been busyy.. Miss youu too 7beebtyy <3

Me and 7mood talked for a bit, catching up on everything that happened in the past few years. M7md salam 3la my brothers w left because he had to go to some meelas 3nd his friends.

It was soon time for lunch, my mom and brothers already started because I was talking to Maryoom and Shammooh. We talked for 10 minutes only because Maryooom had to go since her flight was about to board.

I entered the dining room to find my brother 7mdan sitting next to .........................................
3BDULLAH! Yes 3bdulla. Shit I forgot that he said that his friend is coming over for lunch.. But I didn't know it was 3bdulla as in  My 3bdulla. Wait what? He isn't My 3bdulla! What am I saying :s I quickly realized that I was in a slightly revealing dress and so I quickly ran upstairs and got a sweater then went down to have lunch. Lunch was a bit awkward but it wasn't so bad. Me and 3bdulla made quick chat, he asked about college and gave me advice on some of the teachers (since he is in the same college as me)

When lunch was done my mother asked me why I ran upstairs and I explained to her that my dress was a bit revealing and so I wanted to cover up a bit even though I'm not mit7ajba .. I wear an open 3baya when I go out just for the sake of people not gossiping. Gosh I don't understand why people do that! Y3ny it's my life can't they mind their own business? The only reason why I actually bother wearing a 3ba isn't because of my fathers reputation, I couldn't care less about him, but it's about my mother. She always advised me to wear a 3ba because of the 5rfan in this country and because it's respectable to the Islamic culture. I'm planning to wear Sheilah when I feel that it's the right time. I honestly hate it when people just wear a Sheilah for their Sm3ah and not because of Allah. In my opinion it only counts when you wear it 7g rabkum w mb 7g sm3atkum. Anyways I'm going off topic..!

At around 4pm my brothers told me if I want to go out for icecream (their treat) and of course since it is food and ICECREAM I couldn't say no :$ I went in 5looofs Ferrari Enzo with Fahood while 7mdan, Saif and 3bdulla went in 7mdan's Mercades AMG G-65. I was still surprised that they allowed me to go with them while 3bdulla was there.. Usually they wouldn't allow me to even speak or even be in the same room as their friends.. Elmuhum we went to Baskin Robbins and I told the man I want a tub of Chocolate icecream for Mamatii w A large cone of pralines and cream. When I said that I wanted A large cone 3bdullah laughed and said "Inti ta54ein large?! Keif bitigdireen it5al9eena?! :O"  Then Saifo joked and said "3baido inta mat3arfha takil 7g 3aylah 6 ash5a9 =))" I replied by saying "Ha-Ha-Ha -_- Very funny Saifo" Then 5loof defended me by saying "Sho feeha inzain 5lha takil kithir ma tba bel3afya 3laihaa :*" I hugged 5loof and said "Heih sho feeha? Abaa akil keiifffiiii" Then I stuck my tongue out :P I heard 3bdulla laugh and I blushed furiously. I forgot that he was even here! I immediately shot him a glare to not make anything suspicious.

When we came back home I gave my mom her icecream and went to sit by the beach alone. I kept on thinking about my life and how messed up it is .. Growing up without a dad did have some effects on me but I was glad I had my brothers and mom because without them and their support I honestly don't know how I would've survived. Diary let me tell you something about myself, I am not one of the daloo3a girls who are spoiled to death and only care about their appearance and guys. No. I am an independent women, I always worked hard in school in order to make my mother proud. I don't depend on the maids on everything, I like to help out sometime you know what I mean? Also, I don't see myself as better than anyone else, I like to treat everyone with respect. In addition to that, I like to see the best in everyone no matter what I heard about them. So far you might think that I am optimistic and such but you don't know me. You don't know what I did, what I've been through. I am disgusted in myself. I am disgusted in what made me the way I am today. But.. But I don't regret who I am today. Yes I am stronger but I have my weak points. Overtime my dear diary, overtime you will discover the real me, but for now, you will go through my everyday life and will be a part of me. I will tell you things I haven't ever told anyone. Not even the girls. You know .. I don't usually share personal matters with anyone .. I'm a secretive person. Soon, you will know about what made me .. Me.

I was thinking for so long I didn't even notice that the sun has already set and it was dark.. Very dark. I decided to have a quick walk by the beach before I go back to the house. As I was walking I heard someone walking fast behind me.. I started getting scared so I picked up the pace.. I was practically running.. "STOPP! WHERE ARE YOU GOING?! STOP RUNNING!! I WONT HURT YOU!!" I heard the man that was chasing me say. I looked back and it was .....................................................................................................................

Dear Diary - Part 3

Dear Diary,


IT'S THURSDAY BAYBEH :D  
I usually spend my Thursday's with my friends but Shamma has to go to her cousins wedding and Maryam is packing for her trip to Paris which is tomorrow. It was still early and so no one is awake at home except the maids. I did my morning routine and decided to go jogging on our private beach. I changed into yoga pants and a tank-top and headed to the beach. It was slightly cold but I loved the feeling of the wind hitting my skin and my hair flowing in the air. I'm usually not a morning person but today I just felt energetic, probably because of the 11 hour sleep I had :P  As I was jogging I started thinking of 3bdulla again .. Ughh why doesn't that guy ever leave my head! I repeated to my self in my head "I will not do this again. I am stronger than this." I was so focused on saying those words that I didn't notice the rock on the sand and tripped over =))

After my morning workout I went inside, took a shower, changed into this summer dress:  

By the time I went downstairs it was already 12:30pm. I was chilling the Meelas bored out of my mind when I see a guy who's silhouette looked like Saifs, coming into the Meelas, I ran to him and hugged him wanting to apologize for my attitude yesterday and when I looked up it was ...............................

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Cliff Hanger? I'm Evil :P 

Who do you think it is? 

Image from: http://www.net-a-porter.com/ 

*I got the idea from Mer (The writer of From Dubai with Love xo)