Dear Diary - Part 9

Dear Diary,

Me and 3bdulla have been talking a lot lately on bbm. He is so nice and sweet, plus he's really funny too! We have been talking nonstop about completely pointless and random things. I was quite surprised that we have so much in common. I remember a few days ago, we were talking about childhood memories and he told me that when he was 4 or 5 years old, he was walking up the stairs and he saw a ball of chocolate on the floor so he picked it up and just as he was about to eat it he smelt something bad from the chocolate and as soon as he opened his mouth to eat the chocolate, his nanny came and snatched it out of his hand with a tissue and told him it was his little brother's poop =)) I died from laughing ldarajah ena I choked on my food! He used to be such a trouble maker as a kid!

I started going back to university three days ago and let me tell you something.. It is Hell! My professors wayed '6a'36ein 3alay 3shan I catch up on all the work I have missed.. Ista4 5alid told me I have a 5000 word essay due tomorrow :) That guy hates my guts! I seriously feel like punching him right now.

Remember that guy Maryam met in Paris? Ya well she's getting engaged to him in two days! I am extremely happy for her but I feel like mawa7alha tit3araf 3leih wayed.. It's her life though and as long as she is happy than I am too. Owh yeah and updates on Shammamii and 7moodii? Well my feelings were right and they are totally having a 'thing' for each other! They added each other on bbm and according to Shamma, things have been going great with them.

Nowadays when 3bdulla comes over to hang out my brothers don't really like me hanging out with them.. I think they're getting suspicious about me and 3bood's relationship x_x So me and 3bdulla have been trying to not get too attached and friendly to each other especially in front of my brothers. 3bdulla 5abarny ina ey7ibny w mb mal swalif l3ib w ma95arah bs I didn't really understand what he meant ;S

I already started my essay for Mr.Khalid during my breaks in uni but I still have 1356 words to go! I am just going to quickly finish it and then I'll be back.


*45 Minutes Later*


Ughh finally I am done writing his stupid essay and wrote 5000 words exactly :) Are teachers allowed to give their student only one day to complete an entire essay?! Narfazny hal 7mar!! Anyways I'm going dress shopping for Maryoom's melcha with Shammamii.. Speaking of Shammami she said she's coming over in an hour so we could go together.. Hmm what should I wear? How about this?

Yeahh that seems fine I guess.. I applied thin eyeliner, mascara and a light pink lip gloss. Just as I finished applying my lip gloss Shamma came barging in my room telling me that she is starving and wants to go have lunch in P.F Chang's before we go on our shopping spree, and of course I agreed since it is food and I am craving those delicious dynamite shrimp of theirs :P

Once we arrived to Dubai Mall we immediately went to  P.F Chang's  and I couldn't believe my eyes.. What I saw was something I would have never imagined..............!!!!

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This post is dedicated to R and 9al7a :D Thankk youu so muchh for yourr support <3 

Dear Diary - Part 8B

Dear Diary, 

After 3bdulla confessed his love to me I was speechless. I felt like as if my tongue was tied and that I forgot all the words in the English dictionary. I tried to for a sentence in my brain but this is what it sounded like when I said it out loud  "I.. Umm.. 3bdulla.. Aaa.. I.. Me too" Abdulla looked like I just said that cows can fly. He looked so shocked but humorous at the same time. "3eedy 3eedy masima3t 3dil" I giggled and said "Me too:$" 3bdulla looked like he was the happiest guy on Earth. El ibtisamah shagah wayha! Wayedd ktkoooott <3! "Shamsaa inti mat3arfeen keif ana far7an el7eeenhh!!" He was grinning from ear to ear =)) I told 3bdulla that even though we have feelings for each other, we won't be '7abay7eb' due to the fact of what happened a few years ago. I didn't tell him what happened but I think he understood that I'm not looking for a relationship.

We finally arrived to Jam3iya and I bought everything I wanted, needed and craved. I bought bags of chocolates, boxes of drinks and chips and everything my heart desired. They guys kept laughing at me whenever I got hyper and started jumping up and down at the sight of the junk food :$

Since McDonald's is in Jam3iya we went there w got our food then went back home. The rest of the night was spent talking and goofing around with the guys. When it was nearly 3am I told them that I was tired and wanted to sleep and so I went to my room. I checked my blackberry for any bbms and I received a text message from 3bdulla saying "Goodnight my love" I wrote back "How cheesy Romeo. Goodnightt xx"

And that is the end of my day.

Dear Diary - Part 8

Dear Diary, 

As I was saying, I was just about to open the door of the underground garage in order to leave the guys when I felt someone hold my arm and say "Wait.. Don't go..I'll drive you to McDonald's"  It was ................. 3bdulla! At first I felt my cheeks turning crimson but then I got worried because of what my brothers will say, do or think so I pulled my hand away and shrugged. I didn't think that my brothers would allow me to go alone with 3bdulla bs for some strange reason they did o_O

I entered 3bdulla's Rolls Royce Phantom and headed to Jam3iya. On our way 3bdulla turned on the radio and Fairouz's Bint El Shalabiya was playing. The lyrics go something like this:

فيروز - البنت الشلبية

البنت الشلبية
عيونها لوزية
بحبك من قلبي
ياقلبي انت عنيا
حد القناطر
محبوبي ناطر
كسر الخواطر
ياولفي ماهان عليا

بتطل بتلوح و القلب مجروح
و أيام عالبال بتعن و تروح

تحت الرمانة
حبي حكاني
وسمعني غناني
ياعيوني
وتغزل فيا

As the song was playing 3bdula was looking at me then back at the road, he was smiling foolishly.. He brought his hands near mine then our fingers intertwined. I looked at him with shock but then I started blushing:$ He started singing the song w mashallah he has an amazing voice. Aghh can he be anymore perfect? He was dedicating the song to me.. I think I melted at that instance:$  My tiny hands fit perfectly in his big hands, his warm and soft fingers felt so right on my cold fingers. "Shamsa" He said. "3bdulla :D" I replied. He looked like he was in deep thought.. "Emm Shamsa.. I know it's too early to say this but.. I'm falling for you.. A7ibich Shamoos.."  UMM WHAT?! He loves me? Noo Noo mista7eel akeed la5ba6 wla ana fhamt '3ala6.. It's impossible! "Shamsa please ridy 3alay.. Gooly ayshay" I was stunned. I didn't know what to reply.. "I.. Umm.. 3bdulla..Aaa.................................................................................."

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What do you think Shamsa is about to say?

Dear Diary - Part 7

Dear Diary,

I know I haven't been updating in a while, it's been what .. A bit over a week now? I'm sorry but I have been so busy lately. I took 2 weeks off of college because my doctor said I needed a full recovery and to get better before I go back. Did I mention that I have been spending a lot of time with 3bdulla lately? Since he was the one who saved me and he was my brother 7mdan's best fried in high school, my family trusts him a lot and so whenever he would come over I'd hang out with him and my brothers. My mother doesn't mind, in fact, she is quite supportive of me hanging out with him. I noticed that whenever me and 3bdulla would talk or something, my mom would smile. I wonder what she's thinking.

Shamma has been coming over everyday after university and she sometimes sleeps over on the weekends. I skyped with Maryam yesterday and she said that Paris is amazing as usual and that she met a local guy there but at the moment they are just friends. Oh yeah and by the way Shamma and I have been hanging out with M7md my cousin a lot too. I am almost positive that they like each other, because whenever I look at 7mood I would catch him staring at Shamma and she'd blush and look away. Hmm I hear wedding bells ringing ;) Wait no that's the sound of my phone =))  Lemme check who's calling..


*INCOMING CALL: UNKNOWN NUMBER*

Me: Alo?
Stranger: Salam 3laikum
It sounded like a guy. His voice was slightly familiar bs I don't know who it was.
Me: 3laikum El Salam ..  Mno Ma3ay?
Stranger: Ana wa7ed .. Inti mno?
Me: La walla e7lif bs? -.- Inta ellay miti9il 3alay
Stranger: Inzain mumkin nit3araf?
Me: Agool en4ilif a7sanlik .. W i4a titi9il b3ad marah babali'3 3laik el shr6ah !
Stranger: 7beebty leish m3a9ba?
Me: CHUB! Ana mb 7beebtik fahimny?
Stranger: Ellay iyray7ich 7yaty
Me: E7tirim Nafsik a7sanlik!
I hear a roar of laughter.. A bunch of guys were laughing. I started getting angry and annoyed.
Me: MUMKIN A3ARF SHO EY'6A7IK
Stranger: KAAAAAAAAKK =)) Shamoos balach m3a9ba!? =))
Me: MNO HA?!
He started laughing: 7beebich y3ny mno.
Me: CHUBB!!
Stranger: Ana 3bdulla =))
Me: YA 7YWAN. YA 8LEEL EL ADAB. SHAKO TITI9IL FYAH W ITGOOLY HAL KALAM?!
Abdulla: Walla atma95ar .. Kan fkrat Saifo..
Me: Hum wyak?!
Abdulla: Heih w You're on speaker
Me: YA 7YWANAT ! WALLA 7SABKUM MA3AY YOUM ITRIDOON EL BAIT :@
Saif: Hadyy Hady! A9lan inti 9'3eirah matigdireen itsaween shay =))
I could hear the guys dying from laughter.
Me: Ma3asalamah!

*PHONE CALL ENDED*


Walla hayail el 7meer bychoofoon sho basawii youm biyirji3oun el bait. Bajlib el dinyah 3laihum. What the hell was that? It was the stupidest phone call ever! Wait .. Did 3bdulla say 7beebty w 7yaty?! OH MY GOD He Did!! Ahhh fdaaiitttaaa <3 Ayyy Ayyy ana sho yalsa a5arbi6?! Ho mithil u5ooy. I will not fall inlove with him. A9lan I don't like him. Who am I kidding .. I like him. A lot. But I am certain that he only sees me as a sister.. Besides what would a guy like him want with a girl like me? He is tall, hot, has a great personality and did I mention hot? Ufff if only he knew what he does to me..  After spending half an hour day dreaming over 3bdulla. Yes I am that pathetic that I  find myself randomly daydreaming about him.. Anything and everything I do reminds of him. I went downstairs to the meelas to find all of the guys watching some football match. I can feel the temperature rising in my cheeks as I saw 3bdulla staring at me.. Smiling.  Sh*t!! I am in my pyjama!! I'm only wearing short shorts and a slightly see-through tank top!

I rapidly ran upstairs and changed into a sweatshirt and sweatpants by Pink then joined the guys downstairs. The guys were screaming and yelling threatening remarks at the Tv as if the players can hear them! I started laughing at how hillarious they looked and sounded. They kept saying stuff like "WALLA IN MAYIBT GOAL BA4BAA7KK!!" and "YI5RIB BAIT HAL 7ARIS! KART A9FAR YA '3ABI KART A9FAR!!" After the match was over the guys said they wanted to go get food from McDonald's and buy snacks from Jam3iya since 3bdulla was sleeping over and they ran out of snacks and so I told the guys I will join them. I was wearing casual clothes and we were just gonna go get food so I didn't have to change my clothes. We all went in Fahood's Range Rover because it can fit all of us. Yes we went in one car. Saif carried me over his shoulder and threw me in the car on 3bdulla and 7mdan's lap! I was laying down on their lap! I started yelling at Saif and he just kept on laughing thinking it was funny. As usual, one of my brothers had to tease me about my weight and this time it was 7mdan. He said and I quote "5aibah Shamoos bitkasreen reely! Yalla goomy wayed thjeelah mb gadir at7amal waznich!" "7tta el feil a5af 3nich! Ksarty '6ahry yal pumba" Saif added. I started getting really upset and emotional since it was that time of month again and so I cried and got out of the car. I don't know why bs nowadays 3a kilshay I get emotional!  5leefh and Fahad got pissed at 7mdan and Saif because they always like to comment on my weight. I can hear 5leefh yelling at them saying "Into matisti7oon 3la wayihkum! Fashalto el bnayah jdam el rayal w wayed bala'3to el kalam hal marah! Into chifto shamoos nafs el reeshah leish it7asisoonha chanha dababah? A9lan l3ilmkum a7la youm el bent 3ndha curves! Allah 5alig kil7ad as beautiful people, you know how girls get sensitive when you talk about their weight! 7ram 3laikum!" Fdaaiiitt 5loof he always defends me <3 I heard someone getting out of the car but I didn't bother looking back. I was just about to open the underground garage door when I felt someone hold my arm and say ..............................................................

Dear Diary - Part 6

Dear Diary,

It felt like forever since I was awake. I tried to open my eyes or to speak a couple of times but I failed miserably. Let me try one more time eh?  ............ UFFFF I CAN'T !!!   "Bismillah El Ra7man El Ra7eem" I said to myself. I did it! I opened my eyes for a few seconds but my eyelids felt heavy and they closed again. Once again I heard someone yelling "She woke up!" I hear many footsteps speeding towards me. Where am I and why is someone saying that I woke up? I am so confused. I finally got the strength after a while and opened my eyes and this time I didn't close it. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing would come out!! My mom was stroking my hair and kept repeating "Al7mdilla! Al7mdilla! Shkran Ya Raby Shkran :')" My brother 5leefa came to me and said "Shamsa! 7beebty! Tbain Ayshay? Shay Ey3awirch? Tbain Mai (water)?" I wanted to say yes but I couldn't. A Lebanese doctor came and said  "Ya jama3a! El 9abiya lissa hala2 2amat .. Hya ra7 itnam shwey wa ana ra7 anadeekum lama bt2dar ta7kee aw lama fee progress ma3ha okay?"  My mom told everyone to get out of the room and that she'll stay with me. My mom sat on the bed I was on and kept thanking Allah for saving me. After a while I tried to talk and I actually managed to say a few words. I tried calling my mom "Ma .. Mama" My voice was barely audible. My mom held my hand and said "Na3am mamati .. Na3am 7beebty .. Gooly sho tbein .. Sho feech? Shay ey3awirch? Tbeen tishribein shay? Gooly sho tbeen w beykoun jdamich!"  "Mama .. W-What  ha-happened?" I stuttered. "inti irta7ay w 3ugub bngoolich sho istiwa" She replied. The nurse came in and gave me some pain killers for my head and body ache.

I took a nap and when I woke up I saw my entire family there including 3bdulla and Shammah! There were flowers and presents everywhere. I saw my aunts and a few others crying. I slowly started remembering what happened. I was jet-skiing then I fell right? My cousin M7md (who asked my to do the race) came next to me and his eyes were filled with tears.. He looked so depressed and hurt, kisar 5a6ry </3
"Shamoos .. Shamoos I'm so sorry! Walla I'm sorry please forgive! It's all my fault that you're here.. If - if I didn't dare you then you wouldn't be in pain and in the hospital. Shamsa argooch sam7eeny :'(" His tears started falling down his face. M7md was crying. M7md was crying! I never saw a guy cry before. What do I do? What do I say?! I instinctively wiped away his tears with my hand and replied by saying "It's okay 7moodii walla it's okay! A9lan you were telling me to not speed and go far! Ellay 79al 79al. It's not your fault! Please don't cry or else I'll cry ): " I felt my tears threatening to spill. He looked so heartbroken.. I have never seen him like this. M7md excused himself and went to the toilet.

"What exactly happened? Why am I here?"  I asked no one in particular. 7mdan looked at 5loof who looked at 3bdulla. Mama told 3bdulla to explain what happened \: Bs why 3bdulla was the question in my head.
3bdulla came to me and said "Tit4akarein sho istiwa 3gub ma 6i7ty min el jet-skii?" Hmm well kinda. "La.. not really" 3bdulla looked like he was thinking of what to say next. "Emm.. Inzain f inti 67ty min el jetski bs ma7ad la7a'6 .. W I was driving my jet ski not too far from you w I saw you w sped to you.. I saw you drowning w chocking so I got off my jet-ski and carried you onto mine. I yelled to the guys to come help as i was bringing you to shore. I asked anyone from your family if they knew mouth-to-mouth resuscitation and everyone said they didn't know how.. I was the only one who knew because I'm studying to be a doctor.. Elmuhum.. I tried to do it and you opened your eyes a bit bs then you blacked out again. I kept trying to save you bs I couldn't do much and it would've taken long for the ambulance to come fa 5abart u5ooch 7mdan eysha'3il el sayarah w wadainach el mstashfa. Tamait a7awil a6ali3 kil el mai ellay da5ilch bs it was coming out slowly and you were chocking and coughing a lot. 7mdan was driving as fast as possible to reach the hospital and by the time we reached the emergency section you were turning a light shade of blue because the oxygen wasn't reaching your lungs. After a while you were breathing 3dil bs when the doctor did an x-ray on your head they saw swelling because you hit your head on a rock and did an immediate surgery.. During the surgery you lost a lot of blood and they had to stop the surgery. The doctor said ina fee i7timal inich you lose a bit of your memory bs el7mdilla you didn't. Unfortunately, you were in a coma for the past 3 days. Al7mdilla ena Allah Salamch.. It could have been way worse."  I was shocked. "I .. I was in a coma?!" It felt like I was in a movie.. Nothing sounded  realistic or possible.

My mom was still crying.. Thanking Allah for saving her one and only daughter.. My brain was still processing the information I have been told.. After about 5 minutes 5leefa informed me that he, my mom and 3bdulla have been here from the past 3 days.. They kept telling 3bdulla to leave and rest but he said he'll stay untill I wake up to make sure I am okay. I felt my temperature rising when I thought about 3bdulla giving me mouth-to-mouth resuscitation :$ Shamma came to me with tears streaming down her cheeks .. She was telling me off saying things like "Ya 7mara kumin mara geltlich matroo7een b3eid w matisri3ein!" I giggled at how mad and worried she looked and everyone stared at me as if I'm crazy for giggling. M7md was at the door looking at me with obvious shock on his face, Shamma looked at the direction I was staring at and I could have sworn that she blushed when she saw M7md.

Anyways my dear diary.. I am going to talk to my family for a while and maybe take a nap.. Talk to you soon.


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I think this might have been the longest post so far :P   Please tell me what you think about the story so far :D

Dear Diary - Part 5B

Dear Diary, 

I didn't think that the wave was a big deal so I continued driving when suddenly I flipped over. I wasn't wearing a life vest so I was choking on water. I felt like I was sinking into the water. Going deeper and deeper. I couldn't breath anymore, I tried swimming up to the surface but I had no energy and the current was too strong for me. I felt something hard hit my head then suddenly everything went Black.

I tried to open my eyes, even if it was for just a bit but I failed. I felt something soft on my lips breathing in me. Slowly, I felt the water escape my mouth, it was warm and bubbly. I couldn't do anything. My body felt paralyzed. I tried to scream but nothing came out. I tried my best to slightly open my eyes and this time I succeeded. I saw the clear, blue sky and the fluffy clouds. Suddenly I felt someones hands pumping my chest so hard that it hurt. Once again it was breathing in me and the water started escaping the corner of my lips. I involuntarily closed my eyes and everything went black again. Am I dying? I asked myself.

After what seemed like forever I opened my eyes again. My head was pounded and my body felt heavy and bruised. I looked around me and saw white. Where am I? Am I in heaven? I thought to myself. I heard someone yelling "She woke up! She woke up!" I could hear footsteps rushing towards me. I couldn't open my eyes. I heard a loud, continuous beep. I was terrified. I wanted to scream and cry but nothing would come out! For the third time everything went black.

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Sorry for the short post but I promise that chapter six would be longer.

Dear Diary - Part 5

Dear Diary,

I woke up today to the sound of my BlackBerry buzzing. It was a bbm from Shamooh saying sorry she couldn't hang out yesterday. I told her that it was fine and I had fun spending the day with my brothers. Maryam told me that she arrived to the City of Love. I told her to not forget to get me something (as a joke) :P  I checked the time and it was 10:30am. Perfect! I have enough time to get ready, eat breakfast and go to my grandfather's house.

I did my morning routine and changed into this:

I did my hair into a messy bun and added nude lipstick and winged eyeliner. I went downstairs to have breakfast.. Omelet and Orange Juice. Yum! Fahood came and joined me after a few minutes and we talked a bit about random things. I asked when we will go to Yadee M7md's house w he said we'll go after half an hour lnna my uncles want to go to 9alat el Jm3a wya b3a'6.

After breakfast I went with Fahood to bait Yadee w salamna 3l Ahal .. I sat with my cousin Hind and we were talking about some Tv show she's watching. By the time the rest of my brothers and mom came it was Almost wagt el 9alah so my brothers rushed to the Mseed. I sat with my aunts a bit w we were talking shwy. 

5alo Fa6ma (Hind's Mom) : Mashallah 3laich Shamasii m7lawaa ;)

Me: Hehehe :$ 6al3a 3a 5alty ;)

5alo Fa6ma:  :$ Fdaaittiichh 7beebtyy :*

5alo 7amda (7mood/M7md's Mom) : Haa Shamoos mta nawya titzawijain? 

Me: :O 5alo b3dny 9'3eirah w makamalt drasty!!

5alo 7amda: Sho 9'3eirah? Inti f sin el zwaj! Sho rayich f 7mood wildy?

Me: 5alo! M7md bnisbat u5ooy!!

5alo 7amda: Yallah 3laich w 3la 3nadich! Mithil Umich!!

When I was a child we used to play wedding w house and 7mood would always act like my husband.. So evidently my Aunts and Mom would say that when we grow up, we are going to get married. Yes I used to have a crush on 7mood when I was like 8 but not anymore.. I highly doubt he see's me as anything other than a sister. Besides, 7mood is 26 and I'm 20. I know that 6 years is 3ady bs i don't know i would rather a smaller age difference even though age is just a number.

After 30mins the men came back from the Mseed and sat down with us. In my family it's okay for the men to sit with the women because we're all family. Usually the man would sit next to his wife and it is soo cute! But today my uncles sat on one side and my aunts on the other. My cousins and brothers also sat on one side. They were talking about eveeryyythhhinnggg! From football to politics to fashion to business to weddings. I got bored and so I went out to the beach to walk. My grandfather lives in The Palm Jumeirah aka Na5la. He bought 4 big house and connected them together so he would have privacy. He took the last few houses because they have a bigger shore and no one lives next to him. I was walking toward the area that has houses and I see a few guys playing beach volleyball and a few in the water in their jet ski's. I assumed that they were English because we have a lot of English neighbors. I put my earphones in my ear, Fancy by Iggy is playing and I start dancing along with the music whilst singing. As I'm walking I think I hit a hard wall. I almost fell over when I felt a pair of hands steadying me. "Careful there you almost fell!" Said the guy. I looked up and I didn't believe my eyes. "3bdullah!!??" I said. "Shamsa?!?!" He replied. "What are you doing here?!" We both said "Me? What about you!?" I asked. "I'm here in my cousins Shalaih what about you?" He replied. "I'm here in  my grandfathers house :|" A guy came smiling devilishly  and said "3bood it3arifha? 3arifna ya5y 3rifna"  3bdulla looked mad. "Inta sho itgool! 3aib 3laik Bu 7maid!" "Hady Hady ya5y! She's all yours ;) "  I just stood stood there shocked and confused. 

3bdulla apologized for what happened and told me it was nice seeing me again. Once we said our goodbyes I ran back to the house! That was so embarassing! But damn.. 3bdulla has a 6pac :O Aghh can he be any more perfect? I went in the house w my cousins asked me if I want to join them outside to tan and but I said No cuz I'm already tanned :P My brothers said that they wanted to drive the jet ski's and buggies so I said I will join them. Since I always come to bait yadee I have clothes. I  changed into this with shorts.

I got into my jet ski and sped far into the sea. My cousin told me to stop because I was going too far and that he wanted to race me and of course I couldn't say no to a challenge :P I was going so fast that my jet ski kept bouncing of the water but the adrenaline rush I had made me want to do more tricks and go faster! I could hear my cousins screaming in the background but I couldn't make out what they were saying and I continued speeding a lot that I didn't notice how far I was into the sea! The houses looked like tiny dots! I continued driving my jet ski when a huge wave was heading my way.. I didn't really think it was a big deal and so I continued driving when suddenly...........................................................................................

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Cliff Hanger ;) Gonna post the next part of part 5 soon :P

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